Angel

To me, you are like a light that brighten up my life.
To me, you are the saviour who rescued me from falling into the darkness.
You are speical to me, and that is why I want to give you all I could.
Even if you ask me to wait, I will be willing to.
I respect every decision you make, and will support them to the fullest.
I will protect you in every way I can, till the day my heartbeat stops.

Reports, reports and more reports!!

I suddenly realize something, I have three reports due in two weeks time. Honestly saying, I have yet to start any one of them, which sounds quite miserable.... The truth is, if i don't start working hard this week, I will have to force my dear liver to work harder in order to complete them... Furthermore, these are just a part of the problems that I am facing, because the mid year examination is coming up in two weeks time! and guess what, I have yet to start revising for any one of them too XD So, what conclusion can I make from all these situations, that is I have been slacking too much for the past five weeks! Oh my god, since when I had become so demoralised...

To my dear liver

To my dear liver:

I konw I have be torturing you for the past one month. It's my mistake to sleep at three in the morning for each and every single day. Also, I shouldn't have played so much to the extent that I ignored all my work, and only finish them from twelve to three in the morning. I have become a bad boy, I used to be an angel who protects you. However, the deadly desire to play PC games and chatting on MSN just keeps me awake. I don't want you to die my dear liver, although I am putting you through hell XD please bear with me for three more week, and after that, we shall both be freed. So, hang in there dear liver!

Yours sincerely,
The one who owns you XD

Christmas is coming XD

As shown by the title, Christmas is coming soon XD it has been a year since the last christmas, and it seems like a long time ago event for me. Hope that this year's Christmas can be a unique one for me, and to everyone who are looking forward to this day.

Exhuasted...

I felt that my liver is bursting soon, this is because it has been a long time since I got up to my bed earlier than 12. I have been living a miserable life for three weeks whereby I only go to bed at around 2 plus in the morning, and honestly saying, this just don't feel good! Today, as in right now, I am going to bed early for the first time in the hostel, and I must do it, or else, I might need to buy a coffin for my liver.

Relieved

So many thing had happened since the beginning of this month. So much unhappiness had occured just becuase of a simple event, although it's now settled. We, as a class had become more united as the days passed by. Also, I am getting better as the time flows by, because my heart is no longer aching. Life is not only just the past, but also consist of the present and future, I can't and I won't immerse myself in the past just becuase I am afraid of what is going to happen. I now had the courage to move on, for now I have a goal to achieve, and it extends to many other goals which I want to accomplish too. I hope that I had found a path to carry on, for this time I am sure I am willing to try, and believe in what I see. Even if the road aheads is full of obstacles, I will cross all these with all my might, this is simply because I have a find a reason to live on.

Another work needed

introduction:
-music is truly the one universal language
-although all the cultures have music, each culture develops its own musical forms
and styles
-three of the more successful styles are reggae, punk, and rap

body(para 1):
A. one successful style of music is reggae
1. Born on the Caribbean island of Jamaica in the 1960s
a. spread thorughout the world in 1970s
2. Developed from a kind of Afro-Caribbean music called mento
-sung and played on guitars and drums
-some musicians changed mento into a music style called ska by adding a
hesitation beat.
3. Ska changed, and reggae was born, raggea's special sound comes from reversing the role of the instruments.
a. Guitar plays rhythm and bass plays melody.
-Rastafarians added unusual sound mixes, extra-slow tempos, strange lyrics, and mystical-political themes.
-Raggea influenced later styles of popular music, including punk and rap.

body(para 2):
-Second successful style of popular music is punk.
-punk is a style of rock
-The "punk look" included Spike hairdos, theatrical makeup, ripped clothing, body piercings, and jewelry made from objects such as razor blade and safety pins.
-the onstage behaviour of punks was aggressive and provocative.
-Punk music itself is simple, and its songs are short.
-The first bands: Sex Pistol and Clash in Britain and Ramones in US
-Groups such as Dead Kennedys and Black Flag play hardcore punk.
-Fall out boy plays emo.
-Pop punk by Green Day

body(para 3):
-Third successful style of popular music is rap.
-Rap is a type of dance music.
-the art of rapping originated in Africa and traveled to US via Jamaica.
-Early rap songs were mainly about dancing, partying and romantic adventures and a bit of politics.
-most rappers are young black males.

Conclusion:
To sum up, poplar music changes constantly. However, all contribute to the power and excitement of popular music in our time.

This is a work needed for english essay

Basic English Writing
Joe
B9707026
Physical Therapy
2008/11/25

Qualities of a Good Paramedic

Introduction: We all have different definition about the term “good paramedics”, to me; however, good paramedics must have the passion and willingness to serve the other.
Body:
1) Being passionate means you will help your patient or others with all of your efforts.
2) Willingness determines the attitude towards the patient, poor attitude can result in negative results.
3) Being friendly is another important factor, carry a smile on the face, do not let the patient feel uncomfortable
4) Being responsible allows a good paramedic to have his or hers fullest attention on each and every single cases.
Conclusion: With all these qualities and applying them appropriately, a good paramedic can perform his or her abilities to the fullest.

selfish of self-protection?

You might have heard this before, although this might sounds like a direct translation, it's that if you don't live for yourself, the world shall be destroyed. Put it simply, what it means is that live for yourself, do things that benefit you. This what is happening in our modern society, however, there is still some exceptions where they do care for others and willing to sacrifise for others. However, this type of people is becoming less as the world modernize.

I have met those kind people before, especially the days in Singapore, most of my friends are willing to help others even if they are very busy. We are true to each other as the smile we give to each other is the truest and the laughter we had is real becuase we had the true fun together. There won't be any backstabbing, although it happened before, but it is not that serious, more like a joke. We can play for the whole day without worrying anything, that is why I cherish my friends that I met in Singapore, even if we might not be able to meet each other again.

As I came back to Taiwan and entered NTNU, I was forced to put on a "protection", such that I won't be hurt by others. I realized that a part of my misery that I am suffering now is caused by meeting the wrong kind of people. I used to trust others totally, but I was being betrayed even though I am true to them. I used to help others whenever possible, but my efforts were being wasted when they threw those hurtful and mean words at my face. Even though I did all that I can for her, but in the end I was being hurt deeply. The Second term which lasted from March to end of June in NTNU is like a hell for me. Although you may hear other people saying they enjoyed it, the difference is because that the people we met are different. During that period of time, I really cannot trust anyone around me, because I was being backstabbed by the one who I respected the most. Those whom I trusted say bad things about me and her behind my back even though they say they are doing this for my benefit, preventing me from being hurt by her. But just wait a second, since when I need others to help when they are adding on to the problem. I can't tell if their smiles are meant to be friendly or they are having some evil plan in their heads again. I can't help myself from getting more self-centered .

However, as I enter CGU, I am getting back to my normal self, where I can be true to other and trust those friends that I have now. I am those kind of person who feels upset when I can't be true to others and unable to trust anyone, this just make my life so miserable. I do not want to live for myself only, this kind of life is simply too vake, I want to live for my family, for the one I love, for those friends that I cherish the most, and why only live for yourself?

It's cold....

I am sitting in the computer lab right now with a temperature of 12 Degrees Celsius outside the room. I think you must agree that it is really cold out there, and I really don't want to walk out of this room...... what will cold weather reminds you of? Steamboat, sadness, hot bath or a cup of hot coco XD To me, last year's winter was the best time I ever had, or I should say it's the most happiest time in my entire year in NTNU. Thinking of something to do this winter, don't want to make it too boring...... boo.... XD

depressed...again!!!

I know, I know, life should not be such a misery, it should be full of joy and everything will be much better when the next day come. Just finished a fun and exciting birthday celebration for one of our dear classmate, but, I just don't know why I started feeling down again. The party is really fun, I guess it is the problem with myself. I am now trying hard to surpress some of my feelings and memories in order to let myself to get back to the normal life I used to have before entering NTNU. I know that this might sound weird to you as you might think I am a bit crazy or maybe out of mind. Honestly saying, I am really not feeling well, the more I try to surpress these feelings, the more exhuasted I get, and it's really difficult to erase away memory and rooted deep into my mind. I need time, in fact a lot of time before I can get better, I would love to find a "cure" that can make the curing process faster, but the "cure" I found is something that I can't afford take, at least for now...... Am I being too childish?..... sometime I would ask myself this question...... I don't want to see myself keep on falling like this, I really hope that something can appear one day and make my life better, I really wish for that.

Fillfuling week

Had a very busy but wonderful week beginning with last Monday, although there were lot of tests last week, but on the whole it's quite enjoyable as we had many activities after the tests. We didn't do anything on Monday since the lessons ended quite late in the night, so we went out on Tuesday afternoon since there was no lesson. We had a delicious lunch that did not cost us much, and we accompanied one of our friends to go for a haircut. The most amazing thing about this Barbour shop is that not only the one cutting the hair gets the service, but also those who are with him. We went inside and were invited to sit on the chair with television and drinks for us to enjoy, even though we didn't have our hair cut. however, the cost for that was that our dear friend who cut his hair must pay 400 dollars, and that is considered the standard price in that shop!! The most ridiculous thing was that we took three and half hours to do all these and came back to school only at four XD That's about it for Tuesday.

Did not go out again on Wednesday because there was a test on Thurday morning, so again, we went out on Thursday night. We took the free shuttle bus from the school that took us 40 minutes to reach the Chang Gung hospital, which can be done in 15 minutes if we go there by motocycle. Had a simple dinner and honestly saying, the meal is really "too simple"...... although it's cheap..... but the amount of meat they give is considered very very stingy...... Then we went to have ice katchang(did I spell it right lol), forgot to mention, the temperature is 17 degrees celcius on that day XD After that we bought some supper to bring back to the hostel and that's another night we had out there.

I went to visit my friend from NTNU who is now studying in Fu Ren University on Friday night. It took me about half an hour to reach there by motocycle and the traffic is in chaos, had a hard time just to get through it. He brought me to the night market which is so lousy that nothing can be done there, so we just take a look and went for our dinner. We only spent 198 dollars a person and we can eat as much as we want. This kind of stalls are quite common in Taiwan, whereby you pay a fixed price and you can take as much as you can. Then we back to his university and toured round his campus, also to his hostel to take a look. His school, Fu Ren, is really...... old..... in the sense that its building are quite small and looked... old... After that went to buy a bowl of dumpling for my senior as supper and it's time for me to come back to school.

As you can see, although there are a lot of tests, life can be still as enjoyable (wahaha), this is what I called enjoying life to the fullest!

Do I consider myself as present or past tense...

My heart has fell sick, since the end of May this year. What's the name of the illness you might ask, but I can hardly give you an answer for that, because I myself don't even know why I am in a mess and feeling low when I am alone. I guess I am just a person who simply can't forget his past... the memory that should be kept close in the heart. However, my heart can longer store anything, because it is filled with scars that someone left behind. I only manage to realise something recently, it's that you can love someone deeply, but deep in your heart you know that we can't be together forever, the love we had can only exist in the past in the form of memory. Time doesn't seems to be helping much, and I know I must overcome this so that I won't fall deeper into the darkness.

I want to thank my mum, who stayed with me and cheered me up throughout the whole summer vacation. I want to thank Tina, who is willing to listen to my thoughts and consoled me. I want to thank Eric, who is willing to come over to my house and chat with me till 4 in the morning and played around with me for 2 days. I want to thank my cousin Nai Weng, who gave me advises and talk to me whenever she is free. I want to thank my cousin Chuang Mao, who is willing to share his experience with me during the trip to China. I want to thank Grace, who chat with me during the summer vacation via MSN so that I won't feel lonely. I want to thank my classmates in ChangGung University, for all the things that we did together, which brighten up my life. Also, a big sorry to my friends in Singapore, for not chatting with you all often, I want to talk to you all after your A level!! Finally, a special thank to my two seniors, Alphie and Ayli, who chat, consoled, anaylsed and share their experiences with me which last for a long long time XD I really appreciate for all the things that you all had done for me.

Fun!!

Went to Dan Shui 3 hours ago, and I celebrated my cousin's birthday XD remembered the date wrongly... almost miss out her birthday.... bought a Starbuck Latte together with a cake from 85'C as a birthday meal for her. Although I only stayed there for a while, but we had quite a "long" chat, sounds irony isn't it. I guess that's the most exciting event of the day, Happy Birthday to my dear cousin!

LOVE

Has anyone, or at least someone, at the age of around 18-20 tried to define the meaning of love? I thought I use to understand the meaning of love, however the year in NTNU(National Taiwan Normal University) caused a drastic change in my view about love.



I do admit I have a past of my own, however, during that period of time, I have to face idiots that ask me, "are you sure you want to be with her forever? Won't you want to be with other girls?" Or they might tell me, "you two won't last long, even if you say you love each other." I really want to scream at them, because these idiots thought that since they are older than me, they have the rights to give comments on our relationship, they even reach a stage where they are actually reprimanding me! What is this? one of them even got ditched by his girlfriend, who gives him the right to look down at our relationship. Do they treat love as a game? or they simply don't want to see others to be happy? I have a lot of stress at that point of time due to the school works, and they are adding on the stress level. Why do I have to deal with all this? Is it because I have a girlfriend that pissed some of them(this is a fact), or I am not good enough to please those idiots?



I tried to forgot the past, however, it is really impossible. Many would tell me time will heal everything, but four months have past and time only make some of the pains fade away. Although I am not as sad as I were four months ago, but I am in mess now. How am I going to "define" the past one year in NTNU, almost three quarter of it is filled with her, and some of the things that happens nowadays keep making me recall that piece of memory. I really can't tell whether this love is a blessing to me or a disaster for me... I tried my best to satisfy her needs and requirements, I even exhausted my last bit of strength to protect her, but I must admit that I did hurt her deeply due to the fact that she and the others are giving me an amount of pressure that I can no longer withstand. I am the one who is willing to clean up the mess that she created, willing to accept all her bad habits and her temper, but why I felt that I am so stupid to do all these.... she did not force me to do all these, and why I am still so concern with all these that happened in the past. I guess I had found the reason for that. I ruined my year in NTNU which should have a happy ending, I did not put all my attention on my study which disappointed my mum, I have to deal with all the negative emotions that she and the others are giving me. I give all that I could, and in return she said that I am not protecting her mentally.



Is it always true that the love we have during the age of around 20 is always considered as puppy love? I don't treat love just a game, because if I do that, I am wasting my own time and her time.

Why do I write this essay? Because I want to let all my anger out at once so that I need not keep this in my mind and be sad about it, and this essay is dedicated to those idiots that I am mentioning, especially Mr Wong!!!!! you know who I am talking about! I am so sorry to post such informal and emotional essay, but I just can't take it anymore!

Trip to Dan Shui

This should be posted a long time ago, but sad to say, I was somehow "too busy" to post it. It starts with one fine Saturday morning, I walked up the stairs and reached my motorbike, put on my equipments, and there I head for Dan Shui. The main purpose of this trip is to visit my dear cousin who is studying there, and at the same time to take a look at how beautiful Dan Shui is.


After an hour's ride, I reached the destination and called my cousin to lead me to her hostel that she is living in. After I put my bag, we went to have our lunch since it's already noon.

This is the photo of the restaurant that we visited, and I must say that the food there were just marvelous, together with the eye catching scenery beside us, it's like a paradise.

After we had our lunch, she brought me to her University for a tour, and I must say that their school is far nicer than our school. There are all kinds of shops and stores that "surround" their school and their 7-11 opens 24 hours a day! As compared to our poor Family Mart that only opens till 1am, and tasty food stores that are only available 12 storeys above our hostel, I guess theirs are much better than ours.

Then we head for Dan Shui Lao Jie, the old street of Dan Shui. We had our "dinner" there, consisted mainly snacks rather than a proper meal. We had the Turkish Ice Cream, where the ice cream seller will do all kinds of stunts to trick you. Other than that, we also bought the barbecued squall, potato chip in the shape of the spiral stairs, and fried Taco balls. We seat along the fence, tasting the delicious food while enjoying the beauty of the night.

As it was getting late, it's time for me to go back, I farewell to her and ride my motorbike back to school. The conclusion of this trip is that Dan Shui so beautiful that I can hardly concentrate on the traffic while riding my bike XD, and the food there is absolutely great!

Slacking......

This is the worst thing that is happening to me, I should be studying physics right now..... but why am I sitting right in front of my computer, isn't there something wrong XD ok, I admit that I am not as hardworking as I were last year fighting for my scores, but I guess I shall treat this test as a lesson for me, for being too lazy...... I am so sorry teacher, please forgive me for not warking hard for this test..... cry...... I was really busy during the weekends, please forgive me >.<

R.I.P

As the school is busy preparing the ceremony to farewell Mr. Wong, our beloved chairman of the company, I am busy attending the funeral for my grandpa, who past away almost 10 days before. I didn't tell anyone from my school about the reason why I have to take a lift , and I rushed back home on Thursday morning. My grandpa is a great person whom I respect, who had live through 95 years of life. I didn't get enough rest for these few days, and that applies to my parents too. Today will be the last day for the ceremony, and honestly saying, I have no time and energy to deal with the homeworks and the upcoming test...

I guess, a person have to die someday, and it's just the matter of time. Thus, that's why we should treasure the time we have now, live it to the fullest and leave no regret.

Truth--Time

Truth hurts and time heals, to me they appear to be like a twin, stand side by side and take place at the same time, although with opposite effects. However, what is happening to me is that truth has now become a blessing to me but time, on the other hand, is killing me... hurting me deep into my heart... I want to cry, I tried to cry, however, it seems that my tears has long been dried. My heart and mind have fell sick, and my feelings are in a mess. Fortunately, hatred and anger were no longer bothering me, maybe the mess is there because I just can't accept the fact that I am the one who is acting like an idiot.

My happiness and sadness is fighting fiercely within me, and none of them is on the losing side... I have lost my target of my life, and now trying hard to fix it back, and what I hope is that time can be the cure for it...

Special Gift

We received all kinds of gifts every year, although we define the word "gift" differently. I received one of the most special one that I ever had in my 19 years of life. It was a simple call that I made last night that warmed my heart. It's a voice that I have almost forgotten, and that voice gave me the answer that I long seeking for, although it was only a short one. It cleared all the doubts that filled my heart, and washed away all the pain, sorrows, and anger that lied deep within my heart. I felt terribly sorry for what I had done and being so childish; I wanted to thank her so much, for preventing me from falling into total darkness. Everything had come to an end now, for what had happened can never be rewind...... But at least it's a ending that I hoped for.

Exhuasted, tired, restless, sleepy, what else can I say....

Ok, let me review what I have done for the past one week. I slept, and woke up, had my meals, sit in front of my PC, and I guess that's all, sounds retarded isn't it..... the worst thing is that I only went to bed at around 2 or 3 in the morning, and that lasted for the week. Sad to say, I really can't focus in class nowadays, I feel so sleepy that I can barely keep my eyes wide open. Anyway, the reason for sleeping so late is that I am being busy for no reason! Things just pop up unawared and I have to settle them before they accumulate. Furthermore, the situation is getting from worse to worst, tests are coming up next week and more works are to be handed in, and this weekends would be filled with the orientation camp, where am I suppose to squeeze out a time for them!? Now what I can do is to pray, and pray, and hope that a miracle can happen.....

I have a blog!! it's a miracle

Wahahahaha, it's amazing isn't it, the person who does not write diaries has now got his own Blog!! I can't believe myself doing that...... shall say hi to my friends in Singapore viewing this brand new blog, it has been a long time since we last met, hope that this blog can tell you all more about my life here, and jiayou for the upcoming A level. All the best =]