Do I consider myself as present or past tense...

My heart has fell sick, since the end of May this year. What's the name of the illness you might ask, but I can hardly give you an answer for that, because I myself don't even know why I am in a mess and feeling low when I am alone. I guess I am just a person who simply can't forget his past... the memory that should be kept close in the heart. However, my heart can longer store anything, because it is filled with scars that someone left behind. I only manage to realise something recently, it's that you can love someone deeply, but deep in your heart you know that we can't be together forever, the love we had can only exist in the past in the form of memory. Time doesn't seems to be helping much, and I know I must overcome this so that I won't fall deeper into the darkness.

I want to thank my mum, who stayed with me and cheered me up throughout the whole summer vacation. I want to thank Tina, who is willing to listen to my thoughts and consoled me. I want to thank Eric, who is willing to come over to my house and chat with me till 4 in the morning and played around with me for 2 days. I want to thank my cousin Nai Weng, who gave me advises and talk to me whenever she is free. I want to thank my cousin Chuang Mao, who is willing to share his experience with me during the trip to China. I want to thank Grace, who chat with me during the summer vacation via MSN so that I won't feel lonely. I want to thank my classmates in ChangGung University, for all the things that we did together, which brighten up my life. Also, a big sorry to my friends in Singapore, for not chatting with you all often, I want to talk to you all after your A level!! Finally, a special thank to my two seniors, Alphie and Ayli, who chat, consoled, anaylsed and share their experiences with me which last for a long long time XD I really appreciate for all the things that you all had done for me.